Twinkle Twinkle

2016-01-31
New home, Berlin

Hey beutiful friends and enemies~

 

You all know about this one particular feeling.. Wishing for fairytales but ending up with awkward flirting. But nerveless there are times you are just the right amount of charming and beautiful, feeling perfect that one day. BUT…… You simply meet the wrong person who is trying to flirt with you and you just go with the flow and end up being nice to someone you are not even a bit interested in. And there are these other moments you just randomly run into someone special or get attention from someone you been eyeing for a while now and your mouth just looks as if it has been sewed up and you just awkwardly smile and your chance of finally getting the one you want disappears in an eye-blink.

So why is this like that?? Maybe I am the only one who is just soo bad at flirting with people I actually have a thing for. Hm. At least Cho (a close friend of mine) made me take a bet. I am supposed to start the whole thing next time. And I am really interested in how the whole shit will end up.

But of course there are all those other girls just looking perfectly fine with talking to their crushes without any problems. And of course I am so proud of them. And I hate all the comments saying these kind of girls are sluts or bitches… What is wrong with the fact that someone is charming? Of course… You should exclude all the ones just trying to get hooked up with the boyfriend of their bff just because they think of it as a fun game. That is just disgusting.

Another problem that is bothering almost everyone are the CREEPS. Of course it is nice to get attention but why it is always them dumb guys trying to hit on you? And maybe the random disturbing attention wouldn’t be the problem itself if not all the other jealous chick always judging you and looking at you as if it would be your fault that all these creeps try to get some from you. And for all those who don’t understand the situation, it is very tiring to get spoken to while trying not to hit all these assholes in their face. And I am not speaking about all the candy boys and lovely human being sincerely showing one their attention but about all these old fuckers using their penis as a compass.

Crushes are of course a separate topic. Butterflies in one’s tummy and the continued thinking of only one person might be really cute. And finally getting your shit together and starting to show a bit of how you feel is a must. Real love……. Fairytales. Who doesn’t believe in that at least a bit? There is always the right one waiting for you, but some fun is always a must.

But before I go to continue to study for my exams (omg they’re in 2 weeks) I will just share my favorite poem with ya all (ok maybe not really my fav)

Twinkle twinkle little whore

Close your legs it’s not a door

Twinkle twinkle little slut

Name a guy you haven’t fucked

Was he skinny, was he tall?

Nevermind you fucked ‘em all. ❤

 

P.s. Yeah, me too has this one particular cutie I am inserted in right now. But hush~

 

And for now
Keep smiling
Kiss&Hug

Au revoir

– K

 

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Twinkle Twinkle

Oh, that luxurious coffee

2016-01-21

The Cafe in the Old City of Vilnius

“You know, I started drinking coffee” said my friend Jane to me when we finally met after a while. I couldn’t help but wonder, what is it with that magic drink, that even people who adore green tea and fresh juice so much, like Jane, starts drinking coffee, at last.

Smell. The first thing that comes to my mind. I have no idea why but pleasant smells are so important in my living atmosphere. And, yes I’m addicted to that special one – CHANEL No.5 but cinnamon, lavender, muscat and coffee are so satisfying, too…

Especially, in the mornings. When is still dark around and it’s becoming lighter and lighter little by little. And that first warm sip of coffee… Mhmm, that delicious bitterness. It’s such a pleasure! I live on the 14th floor, by the way. Thus, I’m in love every morning, looking through the window, seeing that disappearing fog over the city and waking up gradually because of the coffee.

What is more, I realised when you buy coffee in the city (like I am now), you don’t buy just coffee, you buy much more. It’s the atmosphere. It’s the ability to buy, the ability to be surrounded by people, who are interesting, unique, mysterious and lost in their worlds. Not without a reason “We should have coffee sometime” has the meaning of cosy meeting, friendly chat or even a date…

And, ohhh! Do I need say something more about those poetical cosy rainy days with a cup of hot coffee in the hands?..

And you know, where would I be without coffee today, in our fast and busy world? The answer is simple – in bed.12583655_1020847154604696_103769965_n

Thus, life is short.

Stay awake for it.

Drink coffee.

 

Bisous bisous,

– V

Oh, that luxurious coffee

Caught

2016-01-19
New home, Berlin

Hey beutiful friends and enemies~

There is always this one time in life (or more haha) when you just have to finally choose what you are going to do later on. And I am right now in this kind of situation. Choosing my own way is something exciting, thrilling but actually very scaring as well. I know that every decision can be redone but actually it is something that will leave a mark on the plane piece of paper called your life.

I never thought I could feel this insecure about life and about living far from my home. I just recently noticed that coming out of the comfort zone is way harder than it seems. I always tried to push all my friends out of their comfort circle but now that life does the same with me I see how amazing they are to have made it throw all the hardships that I am facing for the first time right now.

It might be my trust issues I have with new people or just the fact that my character is not the typical “I am oh such a nice person” one but I feel how far from my true self I am acting here. It is not that I would be faking any emotions or being strange… Maybe I’ve just changed as time went by. Or maybe I can’t unfold myself with the people I met here.

Another thing that bothers me a lot is music. I grew up with having music everywhere around me and always doing music. When someone was asked to say the first word that comes to mind after hearing my name it always been music and I was proud of that, but how much longer will I be able to have music around? It is not something that ever will disappear it is just my own realization that I won’t be able or better I don’t even want to make music to my work.

How have you been able to choose the right way? Is there even a right way? Maybe you have to listen to your head sometimes more than to your heart? Or am I wrong? There are almost no such times in life I feel doubtful but this time I just want to make the perfect choice and the pressure of doing it right freaks with my head.

Nerveless I am damn thankful for having such good friends, family and the right of choosing how I want my life to turn out- what I want to do in life.

I almost wrote a novel here.. Haha.. But  this time I felt as if I was speaking about things that are in every person’s mind who is in his/her early 20ties.

 

And for now
Keep smiling
Kiss&Hug

Au revoir

– K

 

 

Caught

In between

2016-01-02
In-between of old to new. On my way..

Hey beautiful friends and enemies~

So it’s the beginning of a new chapter (nope, I’m not saying this every year.. Haha) and I’m on my way back to Berlin. Nostalgic days with family and my absolute favorite season- Christmas (yeah, for me Christmas is a separate season :P) came to an end and here I am waiting for my departure back into reality. But this time my reality will be a bit different: my new residence is not completely arranged (yet missed my big bed a lot..) and not everything is set clear by now but I promised myself on New Year’s Eve that I’ll open a new blank page of life and start filling it with beautiful colors (rosè&mint are lovely but black&white are the ultimate favs). After having a wonderful goodbye party with my witty girl V, thousands of thoughts wouldn’t leave my mind. We live a perfect life.. And I am happy to be able to smile everyday. So the only thing that’s left to take this chance and keep on full-filling my own dreams. You have to work hard to be able to fully enjoy the success. Take the chance to make a change~ the stars are on your site..
So here I am writing down my first thought and taking you for a sneak peak into my life.

P.s random fact: I’ll be adopting a ferret soon but I haven’t found the perfect name yet..

And for now
Keep smiling
Kiss&Hug

Au revoir

– K

In between

Hello, lovelies

2016-01-01

Hometown

„Breakfast at Tiffany’s“ CHECK

Grapes CHECK

Two cups of green tea CHECK

Fashion magazines CHECK

“I’m home” I say out loud while opening my BFF’s apartment doors. And here there is our morning, discussing all realities of life, again. But today is the 1st of January, or, as they say, The blank space, the new beginning and tomorrow my BFF, K, the blond one, is comming back to her current home in Berlin and I, V, the witty one (btw, I’m brunette, experimenting with my hair colour all the time), am going back to Vilnius. Thus, surrounded by all the glossy pages from magazines, we remember that the Earth doesn’t  go around us but it’s not doubtful that we live extra-ordinary lives with our own rules and aesthetics. We see everything from our perspective. Every day we experience, we learn, we enjoy, we feel – we live. That’s the life according to us – K and V.

See you soon, darlings,

Bisous Bisous

– V

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