Caught

2016-01-19
New home, Berlin

Hey beutiful friends and enemies~

There is always this one time in life (or more haha) when you just have to finally choose what you are going to do later on. And I am right now in this kind of situation. Choosing my own way is something exciting, thrilling but actually very scaring as well. I know that every decision can be redone but actually it is something that will leave a mark on the plane piece of paper called your life.

I never thought I could feel this insecure about life and about living far from my home. I just recently noticed that coming out of the comfort zone is way harder than it seems. I always tried to push all my friends out of their comfort circle but now that life does the same with me I see how amazing they are to have made it throw all the hardships that I am facing for the first time right now.

It might be my trust issues I have with new people or just the fact that my character is not the typical “I am oh such a nice person” one but I feel how far from my true self I am acting here. It is not that I would be faking any emotions or being strange… Maybe I’ve just changed as time went by. Or maybe I can’t unfold myself with the people I met here.

Another thing that bothers me a lot is music. I grew up with having music everywhere around me and always doing music. When someone was asked to say the first word that comes to mind after hearing my name it always been music and I was proud of that, but how much longer will I be able to have music around? It is not something that ever will disappear it is just my own realization that I won’t be able or better I don’t even want to make music to my work.

How have you been able to choose the right way? Is there even a right way? Maybe you have to listen to your head sometimes more than to your heart? Or am I wrong? There are almost no such times in life I feel doubtful but this time I just want to make the perfect choice and the pressure of doing it right freaks with my head.

Nerveless I am damn thankful for having such good friends, family and the right of choosing how I want my life to turn out- what I want to do in life.

I almost wrote a novel here.. Haha.. But  this time I felt as if I was speaking about things that are in every person’s mind who is in his/her early 20ties.

 

And for now
Keep smiling
Kiss&Hug

Au revoir

– K

 

 

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Caught

In between

2016-01-02
In-between of old to new. On my way..

Hey beautiful friends and enemies~

So it’s the beginning of a new chapter (nope, I’m not saying this every year.. Haha) and I’m on my way back to Berlin. Nostalgic days with family and my absolute favorite season- Christmas (yeah, for me Christmas is a separate season :P) came to an end and here I am waiting for my departure back into reality. But this time my reality will be a bit different: my new residence is not completely arranged (yet missed my big bed a lot..) and not everything is set clear by now but I promised myself on New Year’s Eve that I’ll open a new blank page of life and start filling it with beautiful colors (rosè&mint are lovely but black&white are the ultimate favs). After having a wonderful goodbye party with my witty girl V, thousands of thoughts wouldn’t leave my mind. We live a perfect life.. And I am happy to be able to smile everyday. So the only thing that’s left to take this chance and keep on full-filling my own dreams. You have to work hard to be able to fully enjoy the success. Take the chance to make a change~ the stars are on your site..
So here I am writing down my first thought and taking you for a sneak peak into my life.

P.s random fact: I’ll be adopting a ferret soon but I haven’t found the perfect name yet..

And for now
Keep smiling
Kiss&Hug

Au revoir

– K

In between

Hello, lovelies

2016-01-01

Hometown

„Breakfast at Tiffany’s“ CHECK

Grapes CHECK

Two cups of green tea CHECK

Fashion magazines CHECK

“I’m home” I say out loud while opening my BFF’s apartment doors. And here there is our morning, discussing all realities of life, again. But today is the 1st of January, or, as they say, The blank space, the new beginning and tomorrow my BFF, K, the blond one, is comming back to her current home in Berlin and I, V, the witty one (btw, I’m brunette, experimenting with my hair colour all the time), am going back to Vilnius. Thus, surrounded by all the glossy pages from magazines, we remember that the Earth doesn’t  go around us but it’s not doubtful that we live extra-ordinary lives with our own rules and aesthetics. We see everything from our perspective. Every day we experience, we learn, we enjoy, we feel – we live. That’s the life according to us – K and V.

See you soon, darlings,

Bisous Bisous

– V

Hello, lovelies